I am not the same person I was 48 hours ago; 4000 miles will do that to any normal human being.  and even though the word normal is relative and could mean I’m crazy, I use it for the sake of making a point.

I get smothered in this feeling whenever I take that flight and leave what I know, behind. Six years and countless faces later, all that I’ve gained and all that I’ve lost, phases like this are more than most can handle.  Sometimes I feel like my back is bent under the weight of a generation to weak to stand tall. The funny thing is, most times I fail … at being the person I know I can be, the God inspired person that transcends all physical attributes.  HOWEVER, those moments when I’m blinded by the smile of young kid who’s found a new joy, a reason to live and to live large.

I think Johnny Cash said it best when he said, “and you could have it all, my empire of dirt, i will let you down, i will make you hurt.”

my best,

Matt