March 2010
2 posts
December 2009
2 posts
2 HOURS.
My body goes numb when all I want is to feel the pain she feels. Did I get in the way or just not see the way things are? For my selfishness, I’m sorry, for my closed mindedness, I’m ashamed. You know the feeling you get when you watch someone helpless get humiliated, left alone to pick up their tattered clothing and trampled soul? I put my feet in the shoes of another man. I answered your...
unbelieveable.
sometimes I wonder how God can love such pitiful excuses for human beings. i can’t believe how pathetic some people can be. grow up.
sincerely,
matt
November 2009
12 posts
to close to close.
I dug a hole to bury the dead. The house I built never became home, the road I walked disappeared into thin air. I knew what I was doing when I asked for a conclusive conversation, a grand finale to our adventure around the world. And you knew what you were doing when you called me back, no turning back. From one parking lot to another, the intro and the outro, man is life ironic.
But, at the...
reblog.
katelyntully:
Maybe your five year plan, your hopes and dreams, your idealistic future… it’s not going to fill that hole. That void you thought was a house with a white picket fence, a car, a ring on your finger - they are all social norms that are expected but don’t offer solace to anyone searching for anything more than complacency.
Your future is not what school you go to, what job you work,...
MMMHMMMMM. →
Berlin.
I know I’m alive mostly because I’ve seen death and it didn’t recognize me. I’m not saying I gave it a proper introduction but who’s to say death deserves that formality anyhow. Dignity is something you can’t obtain on your own. Self worth isn’t selfish, it loves when others are safe and you’re life is threatened, it laughs when others experience joy and your life seems in shambles. You see,...
danced last night to this... →
Threshold.
Greetings from Linz, Austria. I finally have a little time to write and respond to emails, etc.
A few nights ago I watched a movie called Shooting Dogs on our bus during a night drive. I tried searching for it on Rotten Tomatoes and couldn’t find it so I assume most of you haven’t even seen it.
It’s in the vein of Hotel Rwanda and is worth the watch.
Regardless, it inspired...
Herd Instinct, or not...
In opposition to those that claim that the Moral Law (right and wrong, the ‘rules’ of life) is simply our herd instinct, an instinct that has been developed just like all of our other instincts:
Suppose you hear a cry for help from a man in danger. You will probably feel two desires - one a desire to give help (due to your herd instinct), the other desire to keep out of danger (due to...
high but never to high...
It’s hard to believe You knew just exactly what kind of person you were making. Those of us who sleep and those of us who sing are all the ones betraying our dignity. You made a man who made a machine that screams and spits in perfection’s face.
I want to believe that there’s more truth about you than what they say there is. I want to believe in something that explains why...
Jane Doe.
Highways have taught me that cities divided aren’t worlds apart. I’ve been to London and Dubai, San Diego and Australia and with me are the pieces I’ve picked up along the way. I haven’t forgotten your legacy, it makes the windy road a little straighter, the dirt and noise a room remembered, the city lights a clear North Carolina night sky. I am good at convincing you and compromising myself, I...
King Nothing.
“Some days I’m much better than others. My mother always said that bored people are boring people and I’m starting to believe her. Starting to believe that I’m better off running away. That when I’m here I’m an open door to danger’s deviance.
Goodnight to today in hopes of a good morning tomorrow. This is me at my worst trying my best but it feels...
October 2009
16 posts
(the new) Golden Age.
A boy with a body that fought its own his head. A place so tolerant it’s (practically) intolerable. Inside this room are colors that don’t exist out there. A heart that’s rooted deep vs. a desire in dire need of its own empire. It’s utter chaos out there. And…that’s where You want me to be? Can’t You hear the chaos? De Wallen, the twisting network of roads and alleys. This too needs to...
picture this.
Tonight I’m in Mancester, UK. I am a huge fan of the Premier League and made time tonight to visit Manchester United FC. Next year I am planning on flying into Manchester a few days early to spend some time with a friend and potentially go to a game INSIDE the stadium.
I flew my drum-kit from the States to Germany a few months ago and just purchased hardware and cases for the kit, which...
Cash
I am not the same person I was 48 hours ago; 4000 miles will do that to any normal human being. and even though the word normal is relative and could mean I’m crazy, I use it for the sake of making a point.
I get smothered in this feeling whenever I take that flight and leave what I know, behind. Six years and countless faces later, all that I’ve gained and all that I’ve lost,...
life.
listening to: Patrick Watson and The Wooden Arms- Beijing
“A happiness that is sought for ourselves alone can never be found: for a happiness that is diminished by being shared is not big enough to make us happy.” - Thomas Merton
Suffice it to say, this will be more a journal entry than anything else. I’m sitting in the lobby at a La Quinta Inn in Rochester, NY. I have to...
Saul vs Paul?
I feel motivated when I’m tired. I think outloud when all is quiet. I feel content when I’m hungry and I’m only uncomfortable when everything is just right.
This is the difference between the passion and those passionate. Doing life is living counter intuitively. It’s that moment when you hear just what Paul says when he says in death is life, surrender your own will....
On the receiving end.
No matter what, we define ourselves by whatever or whoever we spend the most time with. If you feel hated you probably define yourself by something or someone that makes you feel that way. On the contrary, we feel loved when we are defined by love itself. God is love.
I understand why people act the way they do. Humans know how they ought act and they choose not to. It’s a conscious...
angst and angles.
Oh, so that’s how it is? You’re going to just let the evident become the inevitable? NONSENSE. It doesn’t matter how many times I fluff your feathers or cushion your fall; you always crush me.
Perspectives account for personalities. I think you see life as a linear line where time becomes your selfish crutch, an excuse to sleep a little longer and live a little less.
It’s reassuring (at the...
Almost 3 weeks into our U.S. headline tour, the CONSTELLATIONS tour, my body is begging me to take a break. I have two nasty blood blisters covered by a callous on my left thumb and a (recovering) blister on my right thumb. I have both thumbs taped with Tender Tape, which has been a life saver and is quite superior to any/all medical tape; I look like a serious invalid.
Kip has been brewing...
